Long distance relationship.
I've gotten so used to not being able to see you everyday, so used to it that i can cope and go through days just fine without you here. I can be alone or with friends and i would be happy. But when i suddenly see couples together laughing, looking into each others eyes and smiling, cuddling or even simply holding hands thats when i suddenly don't feel strong and my hearts starts to ache and i feel like breaking down. I try and stay strong everyday, i mean that's what I've been doing for all this while but i'm always going to see a couple and wish you were here with me, right next to me.Its sucks, its sucks so much that i can't hug, see, just simply be with a person i love so much but this is a decision that we both made and i don't regret it. I don't wish i was with someone here, and i don't blame the distance. Distance was how we found each other and distance will never separate us emotionally. Don't worry, i will wait until this distance is no longer between us. My heart is bigger than the distance in between us. Distance gives us a reason to love harder. I hate waiting, but if waiting means being able to be with you, i'll wait for as long as forever to be with you. As long as we can see the same sky, breath the same air, step on same planet, then you and i are not impossible.
I miss you when something really goo happens, because you're the one i want to share with. I miss you when something troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when i laugh and cry, because i know that you're the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but i miss you the most when i lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each others for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life. I wish i could tell you how much i miss you. How my soul aches for you. How i cry at night because i am so far from you. But i won't. I'll be strong for us. I have nothing if i don't have you. I want no one else but you and it sucks that there are miles between us. But those miles means nothing because when i think about you, i'm happy and i'll not quit for someone who lives near me. We will beat this distance, i promise you. It's just a test.
Dear MAA,
I may be thousands of miles away but you're still the first thing on my mind. When we finally get to be together i'm never going to want let you go. And one day, we will never have to say goodbye, only goodnight. I promise. I love you forever :')
